tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post5960095184662494333..comments2023-10-26T11:23:32.542-04:00Comments on Reproductive Jeans: The Hulk In Me...JJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18027548058304720360noreply@blogger.comBlogger91125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-12235087149404309902009-01-08T22:36:00.000-05:002009-01-08T22:36:00.000-05:00Wow JJ. I have felt ANGRY like this a few times. I...Wow JJ. I have felt ANGRY like this a few times. It has always struck me how I never really knew much about anger until I felt this. <BR/><BR/>Good post. <BR/>From CremeBarbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16067045642285877560noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-59583496716232362462009-01-06T12:19:00.000-05:002009-01-06T12:19:00.000-05:00Via la Creme...I think it's so important to get in...Via la Creme...<BR/><BR/>I think it's so important to get in touch with the anger when it's there. It was helpful to see someone else articulate it.<BR/><BR/>What really touched me was<BR/><BR/><I>...no matter how much you prepare yourself for that phone call, it's just earth-shattering. It's the point of no return. You can hope and pray and wish until that very last moment. And then it's gone...</I><BR/><BR/>That is so, so true. No matter how much I know in my head what the answer is, the heart hangs on until it hears the nurse's voice and then it's devastating.<BR/><BR/>Thanks for sharing this with Creme.Patriciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05556535711209804501noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-87872033953621797522008-02-09T00:54:00.000-05:002008-02-09T00:54:00.000-05:00I found your blog through Stirrup Queens. We just ...I found your blog through Stirrup Queens. We just found out we have MFI and so my wagon is circling. So sorry about this last cycle. I only have a tiny glimmer of what that anger might be like. I hope things look up for you soon.Alisonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05951586892501887663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-4312049751467793902008-02-07T10:58:00.000-05:002008-02-07T10:58:00.000-05:00I agree with everyone here, but I hope you find pe...I agree with everyone here, but I hope you find peace on the other side of the anger. Everyone says it's exhausting to be angry, but I actually find it's more exhausting to feign happiness when you're actually pissed. <BR/><BR/>Best wishes to you and Mook.Matthew M. F. Millerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18306497894049075125noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-40054793874803816802008-02-06T15:00:00.000-05:002008-02-06T15:00:00.000-05:00Sweetie...I am so sorry. That is all I can say. Hu...Sweetie...I am so sorry. That is all I can say. <BR/><BR/>Hugs to you!Nicholehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01897510280288314268noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-63432915448339377322008-02-04T09:09:00.000-05:002008-02-04T09:09:00.000-05:00Though I haven't been through what you've been thr...Though I haven't been through what you've been through, I've definitely felt that anger. My thoughts are with you.Shinejilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03353174053245279899noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-65711821367566373282008-02-04T02:16:00.000-05:002008-02-04T02:16:00.000-05:00Sorry I'm just now getting to this post...It's oka...Sorry I'm just now getting to this post...It's okay to be angry sometimes.<BR/><BR/>I have also felt a bit like even my IF sisters are getting out of the whole, while I'm still left alone digging away...So, I just wanted you to know that I'm still here with you, with a hand to hold or shoulder to cry on if need be.<BR/><BR/>((hugs))Chttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01484007558206947938noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-76478034197526839272008-02-03T23:36:00.000-05:002008-02-03T23:36:00.000-05:00I admire you being so honest in your blogging. My ...I admire you being so honest in your blogging. My blogroll recently got me down as I had shifted most of them to 'the other side'. I too went hunting for new blogs to read to plump up 'our side'. The Hulkiness you are feeling is normal and you are not alone xoPrincesses in Muddy Puddleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00002265001740168322noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-86743281110295427852008-02-03T13:02:00.000-05:002008-02-03T13:02:00.000-05:00Oh I'm right there with you -- even before I read ...Oh I'm right there with you -- even before I read this post I think you and I are in the same frame of mind right now.<BR/><BR/>I'm green too -- in every sense.<BR/><BR/>Thanks for your honest post -- really, it makes me feel like I'm not the only one out there holding this inside.Wordgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06580973104447557466noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-65408826059819722072008-02-03T12:15:00.000-05:002008-02-03T12:15:00.000-05:00Be ANGRY! Infertility is so unfair. And the other...Be ANGRY! Infertility is so unfair. And the other announcements just make it that much harder. I am just glad that you and Mook are handling your anger so constructively. And together. Oh sister. I just wish you weren't having to go through this.Ms. Plannerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01409133656377265127noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-67245789689972537082008-02-03T09:54:00.000-05:002008-02-03T09:54:00.000-05:00((hugs)) I will continue to keep you and Mook in m...((hugs)) I will continue to keep you and Mook in my thoughts and prayers.Ivonnehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-39003928458380123772008-02-02T22:04:00.000-05:002008-02-02T22:04:00.000-05:00It sucks, It just sucks. You write down so very w...It sucks, It just sucks. <BR/>You write down so very well. You're not alone in this.Journeywomanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09654778922160201892noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-46937869848519259552008-02-02T20:18:00.000-05:002008-02-02T20:18:00.000-05:00You have no reason to apologize. None. If I could ...You have no reason to apologize. None. If I could take your pain on to myself, I would. In a minute. I hate that you have to deal with such hurt. I'm so sad that you're in this awful place right now.Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00680931702262048959noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-87332248536084491502008-02-02T16:30:00.000-05:002008-02-02T16:30:00.000-05:00Please don't apologize...rage at the world. NO it...Please don't apologize...rage at the world. NO it isn't fair. I have those jealous feelings too, and then I feel like such a b*tch for having them.Happyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14335137784267157167noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-6632509718806211732008-02-02T14:35:00.000-05:002008-02-02T14:35:00.000-05:00Your post hit home with me. I, too, followed those...Your post hit home with me. I, too, followed those blogs who were cycling with me. Last November, with my first IVF, it was a day to day comfort to see how my follow infertiles were progressing. I felt for them with the stumbles, lining issues, stim problems. I had no problems, it was a "perfect" cycle. All three of the women I started in vitro with got pregnant. I did not. I feel petty and small that I don't check up on how they're doing. My FET, also scheduled for January, was cancelled. And I feel the same feelings I felt last year. Sadness that I'm waiting yet again. Shame that I'm not big enough to rejoice with all my heart for those that have also walked a rough, uneven road. You are not alone. Not in the least.Melaniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08725936391366111773noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-44335061282858501302008-02-02T12:56:00.000-05:002008-02-02T12:56:00.000-05:00Oh JJ. I think when I say I get this post - it is...Oh JJ. I think when I say I get this post - it isn't a platitude. I'm praying that you get a clear answer on your next step. But, I am not praying for your anger to go away magically. I think it is healthy to be mad. Because it really is not fair.<BR/><BR/>Infertility S*CKS. And it is OK to get angry. It is OK to protect yourself. It is OK to feel the way you do.<BR/><BR/>Knowing you the little bit that I do, it will pass. And I pray that it leaves you a little bit more healed from this trauma.Esperanzahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14841585672805438897noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-62461892424474543852008-02-02T11:48:00.000-05:002008-02-02T11:48:00.000-05:00I'm sorry your cycle didn't work. I've only just c...I'm sorry your cycle didn't work. I've only just caught up with you - been taking a bit of time out to wallow a bit. <BR/><BR/>I'm totally with you on the anger front. I feel like not only are my here friends but many of my blogland mates have also left me behind. I just don't understand why it's never my turn!<BR/><BR/>I'm sending you a hug and a knowing smile and hoping you're feeling ok. Stay angry all you need to - better to get it out.Portia Phttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08344574775614817555noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-37802891444287898342008-02-02T10:59:00.000-05:002008-02-02T10:59:00.000-05:00I'm late catching up on blogs. I'm so sorry, Swee...I'm late catching up on blogs. I'm so sorry, Sweetie. I really hoped this cycle would work.<BR/><BR/>Yes, of course I know what you mean. While I want everyone on my blogroll to get pregnant and have healthy babies, I want it only if it includes me. I couldn't do this alone - I need others who are still where I am. I hate that I feel this way too - but it is the truth.BigP's Heatherhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07124157582246972372noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-42009629875147574892008-02-02T10:52:00.000-05:002008-02-02T10:52:00.000-05:00you said SO well what I have felt many times.you said SO well what I have felt many times.Dresdenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09175020945060706220noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-49317303197354122712008-02-01T22:35:00.000-05:002008-02-01T22:35:00.000-05:00I am so sorry to read your news. And to be hit (f...I am so sorry to read your news. And to be hit (feels rather like a punch doesn't it?) with a pregnancy announcement the same day just magnifies the pain. Please take all the time you need to be angry and grieve.kaaronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07955824327919244129noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-67954705441864385262008-02-01T16:35:00.000-05:002008-02-01T16:35:00.000-05:00I am so sorry. I know EXACTLY how you feel though,...I am so sorry. I know EXACTLY how you feel though, and I know what you mean about it making you feel better that there are others who are not getting what they want either. I don't think there is anything wrong with that at all, you need to know you are not alone in this. I'm glad that you are thinking about moving ahead with another IVF cycle, as much as it SUCKS some people just need more trys at this than others. ((hugs))MissNoAngel (find me on Twitter)https://www.blogger.com/profile/06159218057261109997noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-23905265406951256992008-02-01T13:52:00.000-05:002008-02-01T13:52:00.000-05:00I am so sorry to hear of your hell that you are be...I am so sorry to hear of your hell that you are being put through. I wish I had the magic comment that would make everything alright. All I can say is that I'm so sorry. You seem like such a good person. Life is truly unfair sometimes.<BR/><BR/>I'm always here if you want to talk. Take the time to feel all the emotion that you need. Anger is healthy and so completely neccessary. Otherwise you are just numb. You're right...infertility is not something I would wish on my worst enemy..let alone such a nice person like yourself. You have every right to be angry. And be angry for as long as you need. There is no magic time frame. Eventually it will pass, but even when it does people don't understand that we are forever changed by it. It never truly leaves us. We are not the same people as we were when we started this journey. But know there are so many of us here who are here to listen even though we are all at different stages.<BR/><BR/>lots o hugs,<BR/>Sarasarahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05816972200056579468noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-89967629764002195562008-02-01T13:46:00.000-05:002008-02-01T13:46:00.000-05:00I understand the feeling of being left behind. I'v...I understand the feeling of being left behind. I've often felt like I was crying in an alley as the parade went by with horns blowing and everyone waving at the Victors. Sometimes I wonder if that is how the homeless lady feels when I walk by her in my new coat without breaking stride. <BR/><BR/>It is important to honor all feelings. There is no second place in this war. As a veteran loser (twice), I try to remind myself that the reason it seems like there are more people with success than those who are trying over and over again is because many people don't have the resources to try IVF 4 times because they don't have state mandated coverage. So those other people disappear more quickly. In the 3 last month, I saw a 5th timer, 6th timer, and yes 7th IVF timer succeed. <BR/><BR/>I like your style. I like that you are honoring your feelings AND moving forward in whatever way is possible for you at that moment. Get pissed, get sad, and take what you need to survive. Some days are about conquering and some days are about surviving. <BR/><BR/>I have my follow up next week. I am gonna ask about that full blood panel. How long til you get results. Sorry to ramble on here.Josée Martenshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12774124942554313863noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-18453147866264764592008-02-01T12:19:00.000-05:002008-02-01T12:19:00.000-05:00I know exactly how it feels to be left behind. And...I know exactly how it feels to be left behind. And the no answers thing. I'm sure that's the major cause of my increasing lacking hope.<BR/><BR/>I feel for you. I wish it was easier xxCarriehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15454167446758199344noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1651636752231816515.post-86370331074608954832008-02-01T11:12:00.000-05:002008-02-01T11:12:00.000-05:00David Banner/The Hulk always said, "You wouldn't l...David Banner/The Hulk always said, "You wouldn't like me when I am angry."<BR/><BR/>I still like you when you are angry...and you have good reason for any and all anger.Dr. Grumbleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09448780702110352118noreply@blogger.com