There are definitions for a lot of things...
Joy: rejoice; feel happiness
Sadness: emotions experienced when not in a state of well-being
But what is the word for the in between emotion that exists between joy and sadness?
Because that's where I have hovered the past few days.
On Saturday, I got to pull of a wonderful surprise...flying across the country to wrap my BFF in a hug as she is preparing for lots of changes in her life. (Ms. Rottenstinker has an active, cute toddler, is 7 1/2 months pregnant, has a rambunctious 6 month old lab, and is moving) Crazy? Yes. But I love her.
On Tuesday, my grandfather passed away.
Even now, I sit and grapple with the roller coaster of emotions. I'm waiting to see what I will do as far as traveling to be with my family while I simultaneously wrap glasses in moving-paper and spend time with someone I care about so much.
Since I suck at adjusting to time change, Im still a bit loopy as it is currently 1am EST, but I am enjoying my 2nd glass of wine, in honor of my grandfather, and trying to formulate sentences that properly explain this in between emotion.
I guess I am also just ready to be in more of a steady pattern of life right now...2011 has not been the kindest to me yet, and I'd like to get off this roller coaster. I am happy to be here with her. Can't fib and say it's not hard to want that cute belly she's sporting.
And when you sit and try and come up with more words, and its been 20 minutes, its time to just hit "Publish Post"...
If anyone can define this emotion for me, Id greatly appreciate it. Until then, I think limbo land is where I will remain.