Week in Review

What a week. I'm officially back on BC. It hasn't been too bad thank goodness--I guess my body is so used to it. I got my protocol in the mail on Wednesday--and we go for our injections class the DAY we get back from vacation. What a way to welcome us home! I also start Syn.arel the 26th, so it's feeling more real every day. I'm getting nervous...

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I had dinner with 2 of my girlfriends from college on Monday night--we try to get together at least every 3 months (this time it had been more like 7). One is married, the other still looking for her Mr. Right...the married friend told us last time we got together that she and her husband were getting ready to go through some tests since they had been trying for 2 years. I remember when she told us that many months ago, that I felt so sad that they had to go through that--welp, now she and I are IVF buddies IRL. The look on both our faces was just relief...relief that we could talk openly and have a shoulder to lean on. The other friend was very patient and understanding--asking questions and just listening. I will actually cycle before her--they are aiming for a September start date. It was just a good feeling knowing we can be there for each other...

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2 difficult things for me this week. 1st was overhearing a person at my place of work complaining how fast she got pregnant--she has 4 beautiful girls. The dialogue was:

"I just didn't have time to breathe! I'd pop one out (yes, she really said this) and then I'd be preggers again. I finally told my husband that we weren't going to have s3x for a year so I wouldn't be fat for at least ONE bathing suit season." (followed by annoying giggle)

I just wanted to cry. She was only a stone throw from my office, and I just had this image of me jumping over my desk in a primate type lunge, thus knocking her to the floor and then I would proceed to whisper in a very angry voice: "Don't you know how LUCKY you are to just POP babies out!?" Of course, I wouldn't do this...I'm not that violent. But I had a smirk on my face as she got up to leave....

2nd was visiting a school for mentally and physically disabled children. It is part of our public school system here, so I am very thankful that this school has the resources they have-and that there are teachers that can work with these wonderful children. But I cannot express the knot that was logged in my throat---I went with a coworker, and when we passed a GYM full of walkers/wheelchairs, I almost lost it. It was just such a reality-reminder--life is so precious. These children will never know a "normal" life...their parents must grieve for "that life" their children will never have....I left there with just an ache in my chest. I finally broke down last night when I told Mook about the visit...I just wanted to reach out to all of these children and make their pain go away...

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Good things this week:

Just found out today that my cousin is pregnant! I am so happy for her--she is a few years older than me, and has been married 3 (maybe 4?) years this July. They have been trying since their honeymoon. I am just so happy for their good news!

Almost vacation time: I really think life knows when you are getting ready to go on vacation-cause I have worked hard this week! We are headed to the lake this weekend to put our kayaks to good use--I love being on the water--so peaceful. I'll take each moment of peace I can get! My thoughts and prayers are being sent across the miles as some of you are entering your 2ww, or getting ready to start a cycle!

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And lastly: I began wearing my "Make Aware" bracelet on Wednesday: exactly a month before I start injections. It is my constant reminder of all of you....