Friday, June 8, 2007

Week in Review

What a week. I'm officially back on BC. It hasn't been too bad thank goodness--I guess my body is so used to it. I got my protocol in the mail on Wednesday--and we go for our injections class the DAY we get back from vacation. What a way to welcome us home! I also start Syn.arel the 26th, so it's feeling more real every day. I'm getting nervous...

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I had dinner with 2 of my girlfriends from college on Monday night--we try to get together at least every 3 months (this time it had been more like 7). One is married, the other still looking for her Mr. Right...the married friend told us last time we got together that she and her husband were getting ready to go through some tests since they had been trying for 2 years. I remember when she told us that many months ago, that I felt so sad that they had to go through that--welp, now she and I are IVF buddies IRL. The look on both our faces was just relief...relief that we could talk openly and have a shoulder to lean on. The other friend was very patient and understanding--asking questions and just listening. I will actually cycle before her--they are aiming for a September start date. It was just a good feeling knowing we can be there for each other...

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2 difficult things for me this week. 1st was overhearing a person at my place of work complaining how fast she got pregnant--she has 4 beautiful girls. The dialogue was:

"I just didn't have time to breathe! I'd pop one out (yes, she really said this) and then I'd be preggers again. I finally told my husband that we weren't going to have s3x for a year so I wouldn't be fat for at least ONE bathing suit season." (followed by annoying giggle)

I just wanted to cry. She was only a stone throw from my office, and I just had this image of me jumping over my desk in a primate type lunge, thus knocking her to the floor and then I would proceed to whisper in a very angry voice: "Don't you know how LUCKY you are to just POP babies out!?" Of course, I wouldn't do this...I'm not that violent. But I had a smirk on my face as she got up to leave....

2nd was visiting a school for mentally and physically disabled children. It is part of our public school system here, so I am very thankful that this school has the resources they have-and that there are teachers that can work with these wonderful children. But I cannot express the knot that was logged in my throat---I went with a coworker, and when we passed a GYM full of walkers/wheelchairs, I almost lost it. It was just such a reality-reminder--life is so precious. These children will never know a "normal" life...their parents must grieve for "that life" their children will never have....I left there with just an ache in my chest. I finally broke down last night when I told Mook about the visit...I just wanted to reach out to all of these children and make their pain go away...

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Good things this week:

Just found out today that my cousin is pregnant! I am so happy for her--she is a few years older than me, and has been married 3 (maybe 4?) years this July. They have been trying since their honeymoon. I am just so happy for their good news!

Almost vacation time: I really think life knows when you are getting ready to go on vacation-cause I have worked hard this week! We are headed to the lake this weekend to put our kayaks to good use--I love being on the water--so peaceful. I'll take each moment of peace I can get! My thoughts and prayers are being sent across the miles as some of you are entering your 2ww, or getting ready to start a cycle!

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And lastly: I began wearing my "Make Aware" bracelet on Wednesday: exactly a month before I start injections. It is my constant reminder of all of you....


27 comments:

  1. Your coworker is the rest of us weren't in the vicinity or she probably would have gotten throttled!

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  2. have a FANTASTIC vacation and good luck on the new cycle!

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  3. Have a great vacation, you deserve it! I'll do my funky chicken dance for good luck on your next cycle. Who knows if that really helps or hurts, but it sure would make you laugh if you saw it.

    I would pay lots of money to see a video of you leaping over the cubicle to knock some sense of appreciation into your co-worker. Nice work keeping it inside, you should reward yourself with a long, cool fruity drink tonight for your success.

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  4. Wow, that is pretty neat that you have someone you are close with that you can go through IVF with. I know it is great that you guys have to, but it is great you have each other!

    I love your bracelet! When Mel first posted about the bracelets I tried my hardest to find that color thread with no luck.

    Have fun next week! We'll miss you while you are on vacation.

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  5. Great that you have someone close to you to share IVF experiences, and wow, what a bummer that you have to work with someone who's such a knucklehead. I loved your fantasy reaction. I was so there with you in spirit.

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  6. Its so annoying to hear coworkers (or anyone) complain about this and that related to pregnancy. I have a coworker that does the same thing, day in and say out. On the phone, whoever stops by, I hear over and over again about her pregnancy nonstop and basically just wear by Ipod everyday at this point!! :)

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  7. ooh - insensitive fertile women. my favorite!
    hope you have a lovely vacation.
    and congrats to your cousin =0

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  8. If you had assaulted her, a jury of your peers would absolutely acquit you - no doubt about that.

    Enjoy your vacation and wishing you the best on your upcoming cycle!

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  9. Have a lovely holiday :)

    What's the Make Aware bracelet?

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  10. Enjoy your weekend! The visual of you leaping was hilarious. I'm catching up with your Pic Pages post. I'm going to sign up right now!

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  11. Wow - highs, lows and everything in between. It's sad, but it's also kind of nice to have a friend who IRL who understands you no?

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  13. Re: Obnoxious co-worker complaining about getting pregnant "too easily".

    If she is only a stones throw from your office - I suggest you start keeping some stones handy at your desk. Big, heavy stones.

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  14. I hope you have a wonderful and relaxing vacation :)

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  15. Enjoy your vacation! I could just envision you in your primate lunge! Congrats to your cousin as well.

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  16. Complaints about pregnancy really knock the wind out of me too.

    Have a great vacation!

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  17. Have a great vacation! Thinking about you for your next cycle.

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  18. Have a wonderful wonderful vacation. You deserve it!

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  19. I hope you had a fantastic time on the water. I understand the calming effects water has on you - thats why I live so close to the beach.

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  20. I wish I knew how to swim, because water is SO soothing. I hope it provides you some much needed mental relief.

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  21. Thanks for your kind words on my blog. I am glad that you have friends that can support you through your IVF journey... congratulations for you cousin, I hope you get your BFP soon
    loved the bracelet

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  22. Ah yes, what a terrible problem to get pregnant too easily. (Eyes rolling.) And what a stupid thing to say in general. Hello, birth control? There are ways to manage these things. Poor kids.

    Have a wonderful vacation and tell us all about it when you get back!

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  23. I am all clenched up after reading your co-worker's comments!

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  24. Hoping for more good things for you this week! Enjoy your vacation, you definitely deserve it. Good luck on this cycle. I'm just here cheering you on!

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  25. Wow, a week of highs & lows for you...as for your co-worker, the next time she starts bragging, you can say to her, "well maybe if you weren't such a slut..."

    Just kidding.

    Am so glad that you have a friend close by who is going through this as well with you. Very helpful and comforting indeed.

    Cheers, Ms. Planner

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  26. Ugh--compaining about how quickly they got pregnant? So frustrating...

    Also--it sounds like we'll be true cycle buddies. I finish BCPs on the 23rd and start my stims on the 27th (assuming everything looks good). :-) Here's to us this cycle!

    Have a great vacation!

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  27. Hm...you vainty plate...I'm going to guess Plain Jane....and I don't know what WL is...help me out.

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