O-man was in the back seat happily singing "Twinkle, Twinkle" at the top of his lungs for the 42nd time that morning (best version of Twinkle, Twinkle I've ever heard!), the radio was playing "Raise Your Glass" for the 43, 504 time (great song, but wow, give it a rest) and I was watching the stream of cars pass by...
I happened to look down to the side of the road where a brave little squirrel was about to dart out into traffic. She would glance from side to side, her tail nervously twitching, then she'd inch out a bit further but then take another two steps back. And then like she had planned it this way all along, she took off in a sprint and made it successfully to the other side of the street.
I gave her a thumbs up, since it seemed as if she paused for a minute to look back across the road to appreciate her accomplishment.
And yes, I have just written an entire blog post about a squirrel.
But isn't it funny--the things that can make us think? I've seen hundreds of squirrels run across the road in my lifetime...and the not so pleasant view of when they don't make it. And for some reason, seeing this one particular squirrel reminded me that I've felt a lot of that adrenaline lately...of wanting to sprint to the finish line instead of taking my time. Wanting to go against my normal "think-it-through" mentality, and just do it without thinking.
I find myself wanting to be at the "finish-line" as far as our family plans are concerned...I want to have the answer now, and sprint towards it. I get frustrated feeling that nervous twitching of not knowing what the future holds. I have to also remind myself to live in the present--even if I am tempted to sprint across the road. I have an amazing toddler that keeps me sprinting after him....multiple times a day. Maybe that squirrel and I have more in common than I thought!
An important PSA for you before you go....my fabulous friend Courtney, who has created Chance to Hope (please take time to check it out!) is asking for volunteers who would be willing to share your story if you have battled infertility and have survived...whether you became pregnant through treatments, a "miracle", or adoption. She is creating a video for the website and educational purposes. Please contact her at firstname.lastname@example.org if you are interested, and she will provide more details of the involvement.