Thursday, June 12, 2008

Cloud Nine?

I'll just come out with it:

All 14 were mature.
Today, out of the 14, 9 have fertilized.

I need to be OK with this--I am having such a hard time not comparing this cycle to last. Just as a refresher, they got 15 last time, 14 were mature and 12 fertilized.

Not too far off, but...

See, this is where you will really see the neurotic part of me. This is where I crumble and doubt myself and wonder how I can stay on this emotional roller coaster.

I know I need to hold onto that peace and hope...I am lucky to have 9 embies growing and I need to focus on being positive. Talk me down here, people. Please don't think I am ungrateful, just anxious as crap.

We are tentatively scheduled for a 3-day-transfer on Saturday at 10:30am...unless he calls to tell me we go in Monday. We were able to make it to day-5 last time, so we'll see.

Thanks for giving Mook the love--he looks forward to his guest blogging!

Before I go, I've had a few people tell me that when they open this blog in Internet Explorer, it crashes. Anyone else having this issue?

Please, please, please let me stay on Cloud 9...

66 comments:

  1. Wonderful news!
    Those 9 embies are on my heart today and I am praying for them to grow strong and healthy!
    *hugs and love*

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  2. Nine sounds like good news. I'm keeping you in my thoughts. Many hugs to you both.

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  3. Nine sounds wonderful to me!

    And yes, your blog crashed twice yesterday in Internet Explorer. I blamed Mook. Although, it only crashed when I tried to highlight some of the words (I do that when I am reading sometimes). When I stopped doing that, it stopped crashing.

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  4. 9 is a wonderful number! Thinking of you and Mook and wishing you all the best!

    I've not had the blog crash issue...yet.

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  5. Hoping the best for those nine embies and for you and Mook.

    Hoping and Praying. While I am at it, hoping and praying that you find you Peace.

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  6. Oh, I forgot, did I ever tell you that 9 is my lucky number :). Hoping that it transfers to you.

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  7. Great news! Stay up there will ya? The air is much better I've heard.

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  8. 9 is great! My friend just completed an iv cycle. they only had 3 fertilize and only 1 was viable to transfer with a grade 6C. And it worked!!!! So as far as I can see....the odds are in your favor! Good luck!

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  9. I understand . . .we always want more and better, but it is quality that counts. Just keep breathing - one day at a time. Maybe 9 is your lucky number.

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  10. Yay for 9 embies! I know you know this, but it only takes one, my dear. 9 would be a houseful! :)

    We'll let you hang out on cloud 9, it sounds like a wonderful place! :)

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  11. Best wishes for those super-nine to do their thing over the next few days. Woohoo!

    And I use Internet Explorer and have never encountered problems when viewing or commenting on your blog.

    Happy!!!

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  12. Good luck! I hope those nine kick ass.

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  13. 9 is a wonderous number, JJ! I'm praying for you all!

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  14. That's awesome! Good luck with all nine!

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  15. 9 rocks!!! Really! Sending lots of good embie-growing vibes!

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  16. This is SO hard not to do.... I mean, to compare to death with our last IVF cycles. But then again, I kept telling myself "Last time turned out sucky - why should I want it that way?" I remember when I went in for my baseline ultrasound and they count something like 4 antral follicles on my right ovary - I felt ready to freak (since last time there were like 7 or 8). And yet I kept saying, it shoudn't matter in the short term what things look like, we're wanting a positive beta, so as long as numbers are ok, I shouldn't compare them so much.

    Easier said than done. Of course.

    Do remember it's quality you want, and I know you know this! I hope those embryos look superstar by 3 and/or 5 days!

    As far as IE, no crashing here. I'm IE7.

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  17. All it takes is one good embryo - remember that. Nine is a great number. You, Mook and your embryos are in my thoughts.

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  18. My first IVF cycle, I got 13 eggs - only 8 fertilized. They put two back in - none made it to freeze.

    Second cycle they retrieved 9. I was freaking out a little - but 7 fertilzed, they transfer 2, and 3 were frozen! And I got pregnant.

    Each cycle is different. All my fingers are crossed this is the cycle for you!

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  19. Nine sounds great.... I'm wishing you all the best this time around!

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  20. Woo Hoo! I'm on cloud 9 for you, and by the way, there is lots of room here so hop on up! 9 embies is fantastic and offers lots of room for hope. Just a reminder, you really can't compare this time to last time because each time is it's own. You are doing fantastic! Hang in there!

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  21. Nine sounds fantastic. Sending to you though many peaceful thoughts. And no, no crashing for me.

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  22. 9 embies; cloud nine; 9months; 2009

    love you and we'll keep you in our prayers

    ca dreaming

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  23. I like how ca dreaming put it, I thought of something similar. But, we'll make a big circle holding hands to make sure you don't fall of of cloud 9! Yay 9 fertilized! Prayers and thoughts for you!

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  24. JJ, that's great news! Nine is a great number--remember, the universe is redoing this cycle to get it right. So, here's hoping that those nine are little growers. Come on, l'il embies!

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  25. The fertilization report is excellent. My fingers are still crossed for you. Actually my IE does crash when I try to open a link in a new tab from your website. :)

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  26. I think Nine sounds wonderful!

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  27. May you be greeted by only green lights for the next several months, JJ. And Mook.

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  28. Thinking of you my dear and praying, you have no idea how much :) XXXXXXXX

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  29. Put nine coins on your coffee table and take a look. That is a whole lotta embies! I'm thinking about you JJ.

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  30. Hoping those 9 embryos are fantastic ones! 9 is good, I promise.

    I use Firefox, so no help there.

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  31. Hurray! Hoping you'll be staying up there on Cloud 9!

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  32. That is wonderful news!! I have to tell you-you are doing your transfer EXACTLY ONE YEAR from my IUI that worked. Mine was Saturday, June 14. I just have a very good feeling about this, J!

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  33. 9 is GREAT! I hope they continue growing and growing well!!

    There's no way around being neurotic about these things. You're in good company, really. Just take it one day at a time.

    GOOD LUCK!!!

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  34. Cloud 9 is the only place for JJ today and for the next few, okay? The inhabitants of Cloud 9 have sent you a personal invitation and it is very bad form to refuse their invite or to leave their party early. So don't even think of it. Any doubts or worries will be strictly dealt with by the rest of us as it will be our job only and not yours, while you and Mook are on your Could 9 getaway, okay? Lots of hugs and rest to you sweetie!

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  35. 9 embies is wonderful. I only wish I had had that many! Wishing those embies to grow and grow!

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  36. 9 embies is good! I am still praying for you, mook and now your embies.

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  37. I had 9 also for my cycle and as you know, things went well for me. I will be hoping that 9 is just as a good a number for you!

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  38. Cloud 9 sounds like a great place to be. I'm hoping really hard for you.

    (BTW, no probs in IE.)

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  39. Nine..that is fantastic news. I will be going for IVF #2 in July and know I will compare away...but since it didn't work for me either, it think it's a good sign things are different. Keep thinking good thoughts!

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  40. I love 9! Hoping they continue to grow, grow, grow!

    Thinking of you & mook.

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  41. Fantastic! Congratulations on 9 embies!

    If I right-click on your page, it crashes. What can I say, I have wayward fingers. But that is consistent and not new as of yesterday.

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  42. Well, I am going to be positive for the both of us. 9 is good and if it produces one or two healthy babies then cloud 9 will be here for a long long time to come.

    Climb on my back hun, I will help you through the next few weeks (and it will be a great workout for my thighs...so a win win eh?!)

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  43. 9 is a very good number!

    I say enjoy cloud 9 is a very good place to be.

    Thinking of you with everything crossed 9 times!

    xoxo

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  44. I think 9 is a wonderful number, JJ. Something needed to be different than the last time, right? 9 is a good number.

    I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  45. The first time I opened your blog tonight, it crashed. . .

    9 is great. Better than great.

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  46. 9 embies is AMAZING! It's fantastic news.

    I never had more than 5 eggs and 4 embies and that was enough to do the trick.

    As our doctor always told us - and i'm sure you're sick of hearing it - you only need one good embryo. Why would you need any more?

    Sending you huge lucky vibes. Just got another result at this end. My 41 year old friend saw 2 heartbeats at 6 and a half weeks. It happened for her and it's so going to happen for you JJ.

    xxxx

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  47. It is REALLY hard not to compare one fresh cycle with another...I did the same thing. You're doing wonderfully though!! Keep it up!! Your little ones and you are all in my prayers!

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  48. Glad to hear that all went well. 9 is a great number and I'll keep my fingers crossed for every single one of them!

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  49. Great news on the 9 embies!! I will be thinking of them, and sending them big growing thoughts!

    And thinking of you as well!

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  50. I HAD NINE EMBIES!!!!! One of them is now fast asleep on the couch, as I eat cereal for luch.


    Nine is AWESOME, JJ. I am so bloody excited for you, truly!!!

    xoxoxxoxoox

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  51. 9 is such a great number!!!
    I hope you get an amazing fert report with all 9 embies thriving!

    I experienced the crash issue. Very weird.

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  52. that is awesome news!! well done!
    xoo

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  53. 9 embies is a great report!! Wishing you both the best.

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  54. yay jj and mook! great news! pulling for you from cal!

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  55. Good luck. I only had 9 follies today so I'm envious of your 9 fertilized eggs!

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  56. Nine sounds like an awesome number. I'm praying that they will grow, grow, grow.

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  57. That is fantastic news!! I'll be thinking good thoughts and crossing everything possible for you!!!

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  58. Hoping for fabulous and wonderful news from those 9 embryos!

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  59. Good luck with the transfer,

    will be thinking of you,

    J

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  60. 9 is good. Keep telling yourself that. Repeat it in your sleep. 9 is a good number, and I'm hoping it's your lucky number! Hugs.

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  61. Try not to get too caught up in the numbers. All you need is one good one, right? I was doing cartwheels when I found out I had four embryos. It's all a matter of perspective!

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  62. Cloud 9 is a great place to be in my opinion! Grow embies grow!

    PS - I am also experiencing the crash of the IE when I open your site sometimes.

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  63. You know I think 9 is awesome. I am hoping you nail it this time.
    And I agree with another poster Jen,
    "Although, it only crashed when I tried to highlight some of the words (I do that when I am reading sometimes). When I stopped doing that, it stopped crashing."
    I can't help but highlight or click on the page. It only started happening in the last week or two. So I often hve to reopen your blog three times.

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  64. 9 is fantastic. Congratulations. I know how you feel, I felt the same way with IVF#1--I heard of people gettig 15 fertlized eggs and I was so dissappointed when I got my results. I really had to stop comparing myself with everyone else or with other cycles!!Keeping my fingers crossed!

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  65. I only had 7 out of 12 fertilize, and still got a BFP. It's your time. Keep hope alive!
    Mook is smart to try and keep you off the internet searches. I went a little crazy with that too.
    I'm thinking about you.

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