Monday, June 9, 2008

Turn on the Tractor


Why are these barrels of hay illegal?



Wait for it...





Wait for it...






Because the cows don't get a "square" meal each day.


Hardy, har...there's a lame southern joke for ya. Every time we drive by a field (and there are lots in these parts) and Mook says, "Those farmers are going to get arrested." I am either right there to catch the joke, or I get worried and ask "Why?!" and then he just gives me that, "Helllloooo, blondie" look.

I'm not planning on producing any illegal barrels of hay, but I am hoping to produce a good crop of eggs. Just got the phone call that I am to trigger tonight at 8:30pm, so that puts my retrieval at 8:30am on Wednesday morning.

Dude. It's time.

I was sort of hoping to push stims one more day, 'cause wouldn't ya know that my E2 levels today are only a few numbers shy of my 3rd blood draw last time, but my progesterone level is creeping up, so it's time. So I will take all of the positive words of encouragement you all have offered, and hope the universe is giving us one big do-over.

I don't want to get all sappy, but I'm nervous as all-get-out (another southern favorite). I feel safe in this place I am right now, and I'm nervous to leave this protected mental state. In just a few days, I'll enter the dreaded 2ww and be in a constant state of wonder (notice I didn't say worry). I value each and every lesson I have learned through dealing with infertility--I just feel like I'm ready to 1) take the test; 2) pass; and 3) graduate. Please. Oh please...

Mook and I both appreciate every single word of prayer, encouragement, hope, love...etc. To be able to picture this big cosmic force of love hovering over us is what keeps us going-truly. So at 8:30am on June 11th, will you send a little bit of cosmic love our way?

75 comments:

  1. Will definitely be thinking of you and hoping for a wonderful outcome for this cycle.

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  2. Har har har!

    Seriously though, good luck. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

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  3. I will be with you ALL the way. I will be thinking of you at exactly 8.30 your time. The 2ww will be a barrage of Becks, so be prepared to get sick of me distracting you from your 'wonder'.

    'Hold My Hand' - Hootie & the Blowfish.....You can bet I'll be there.

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  4. It's all coming your way, love.

    I wish you many good eggs.

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  5. hahah.
    What do you call a cow with no legs?


    ..
    ...
    ....

    ground beef!

    har har back.

    I'm sending you all the good vibes I can!!!! I can't believe you're already almost at your retrieval! Ohhhhhh, good luck! I have everything crossed!

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  6. Sending my Best Wishes for you all this 6/11!

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  7. I will be sending oodles and oodles of cosmic love your way! Good luck with your trigger tonight!! :)

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  8. Loads of cosmic joy and love from steaming hot MA!!!!

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  9. OH MY GOODNESS! I'm hoping for lots of good, quality embies for you guys!
    Good luck!

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  10. tee hee hee! I will def be thinking of you on Wednesday morning (if I haven't drowned in the massive amounts of rain we're getting).

    I second Bee Cee and will be thinking of things to distract you from the TWW with!

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  11. hoping like crazy that you & Mook have a very, very lush & plentiful crop.
    will be thinking of you!!
    xo

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  12. I'm nervous as all get out for you! You are in my prayers and good luck with the transfer!! If I can do anything please let me know...and I mean that!!

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  13. Here's to a big crop of mature eggs! Best of luck, I'm crossing everything I've got, and sending all the good vibes I have!

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  14. Good Luck, JJ! And I definitely will be sending you good thoughts.

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  15. Sending those follies lots of last-minute growing vibes. Grow, follies, grow.

    And on a sidenote, it makes me giggle that they're called "barrels" of hay where you are - they're called "bales" of hay here. It took me a minute to figure out what you were talking about. ;)

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  16. Oh JJ, I am sending all kinds of good vibes your way. Hugs to you and Mook as the steps are laid out for you and as things happen. Praying for the both of you too. Good Luck with the retrieval.

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  17. I so totally get it. I didn't wanna move forward cuz it meant thinking about it all and dealing with the what-if's. ugh.

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  18. Lots and lots of positive thoughts send your way!!

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  19. How exciting!! I am sending tons of positive vibes and prayers your way. Take a deep breath and just get through each step, one at a time. Try not to look too far ahead. That is my only advice. It is very hard advice to follow. I wish I could master it myself. Good Luck!!!

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  20. Cosmic love from now till then!! Hope all goes well tomorrow and the day after!

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  21. You have them all - thoughts, wishes, luck, prayers, finger crossing and chicken dancing.

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  22. LOL that joke sounds like the jokes I grew up on from my dad! Amusment. Good luck on Wednesday! I will be thinking of you and Mook.

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  23. I'm practicing the graduation song for y'all.

    Daaah da da da daaa daaa
    Daaah da da da daaah
    Daaah da da da daaa daaa
    Daaah da da da daaah!

    How was that? I plan to use it, so get ready.

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  24. We always called them Earth Turds. I don't know where or why that got started.

    You know I'm holding Hope over here for you guys!!

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  25. I will send you a big cosmic hug of support.

    My bro used to drive an ambulance and would turn on the PA and yell "MOOOOOOOO" at the cows as he passed. He said they would get really freaked out and look up at the sky. I told him "They must think the Big Cow is calling them home." :)

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  26. I still have my little fertility "shrine" set up, so I'll direct all the good energy your way for the next 2 weeks. I think it's gonna work!

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  27. here's to an amazing start and deservedly wonderful end to your 2WW!!

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  28. I'll be thinking about you and hoping for the best!

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  29. I get what you mean about feeling how right now everything is still such a safe place. It's like right now the roller coaster ride is still going up, up, up and once you are in the 2ww it feels like you won't be going up anymore and are afraid of the drop. I'm so excited and hopeful for you, and definitely saying a prayer or two for you each day. Hang in there!

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  30. lol, love the joke. I'll have to tell my dad that one.:)

    Sending prayers your way, JJ. Go trigger, go...

    ((hugs))

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  31. Good thoughts, hope, and all the love in the world sent your way. This is a NEW cycle, a new round and should not be compared to the others. May this summer prove to be quite fruitful. ;)

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  32. on a side note ** when I read about you triggering to night your song popped into me head. So without further adieu~ "If looks could kill you would be an oozie or a shot gun bang" May good things come from tonight's trigger. Hugs.

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  33. I live in farmland Ohio and I literally drove around looking for a place to buy hay to place on a small barespot where I am trying to get grass to grow. Of course, you don't see "hay for sale" when you are looking for it.

    All-get-out reminds me of college in NC.

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  34. Happy Triggering tonight! You are on your way, JJ!

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  35. Keeping you in my thoughts for lots of healthy eggs on Wednesday and a great fert. report on Thursday.

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  36. **Sending you lots of good vibes**

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  37. You're very much in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be throughout the retrieval, transfer and tww. Best of luck!!

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  38. I'll sending those good positive vibes!!

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  39. SO MANY COSMIC VIBES TO YOU! I wish you nothing but the best. I also will pray for you to have a peace about things as you "wonder" in the 2ww. I will be thinking and praying for you all day tomorrow!
    So much love and hope for you JJ,
    Hollie

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  40. I'm thinking good thoughts for you right now and will keep it up for the next 2 weeks and beyond. Praying for the best news in this cycle and for you to be blessed with moments of peace in the midst of the stressful wait.

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  41. Wishing you awesome luck with your retrieval!

    BTW, to this day (I'm 39) my brothers laugh at me about those hay things. I used to see the empty fields with the hay and I just figured they were the cow's houses... (hey, I was 6 at the time) :-)

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  42. Wishing you lots of luck. My thoughts will be with you.

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  43. Good with this retrieval and all that follows! May it be a time of wonder indeed!

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  44. I am worthless and out of my mind right now, but I can tell you one thing: I am still praying for you guys every day, JJ.
    I am going to be thinking nothing but positive things (regardless of how miserable I am at them moment) come 8:30 AM tomorrow.
    *hugs*

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  45. That joke. . . awful. But I will admit that I did laugh.

    And here's to a great 2ww filled with WONDER!

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  46. I hope you can graduate!!! Keeping fingers and legs and everything I can, crossed for you!

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  47. Good luck - I'll be thinking of you tomorrow morning!

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  48. Hon, I love you but you are a tremendous dork. All limbs crossed for this cycle.

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  49. Good luck! You're in my thoughts and prayers! :-)

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  50. Wishing you tremendous luck!

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  51. I'll be sending every last ounce of cosmic luck and good luck vibes that I can muster. I hope everything goes well tomorrow!

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  52. JJ- I will be thinking of ya'll! :-) and wishing you the best of luck.

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  53. And here I thought that was a Montana joke. And yes I've heard it way too many times to count.
    Sending many, many positive thoughts your way for a great retrieval with lots of eggs.

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  54. Yeah! I'll say some extra prayers for you guys tonight. Here's to lots of eggs!

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  55. Oh wow, JJ. Is it just me or did this go really fast? I realize that it's probably just me and whatever speed it seemed to pass in - is probably going to come to a grinding halt after retrieval/transfer.

    I want you to know that I am hoping and praying and finger crossing for you. I want this for you soooo bad.

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  56. Sending you lots of love, you will be on my prayers.

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  57. Buckets full of prayers, hopes, and positive thoughts are headed your way from me, JJ.

    When I was a kid, while on a long road trip I once asked my mom what the purpose of those big hayrolls were when we passed a field full of them. Without a pause or a moment to consider, she replied, "It's shredded wheat for giants." She said it so naturally and nonchalantly that I immediately accepted the answer and said, "Oh!" It took a few seconds before the pure ludicrousness of her answer clicked.

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  58. I'm sending you good vibes. I'm not sending you babydust, because I think it's a really silly concept, but I am pulling for a good outcome for you.

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  59. Illegal hay jokes, that's awesome! I asked for jokes awhile back and you just gave me another one :-) JJ I'll be keeping you in my thoughts tomorrow during your retrieval and I hope it goes picture perfect. I hope you have a restful day at home afterwards, and please let us know how you're doing. Hugs

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  60. Yaaaaay!! ER is tomrrow!!! I'm so excited for you (go eggies go!). Will you do a 3 day or a 5 day transfer??

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  61. You will be in my thoughts tomorrow morning! Retrieval is scary in some ways, but it's also exciting in a first-day-of-school kinda way too. The part where the adventure really begins.

    Looking forward to being there for the 2ww, too! You can do it.

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  62. Good luck tomorrow!! I'm keeping everything crossed for tons and tons of eggies!!

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  63. Thinking of you guys tomorrow and sending prayers your way!

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  64. Thinking of you and hoping for the absolute best!!

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  65. Praying for you and hoping a positive will be in your future.

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  66. Definitely sending lots and lots of prayers and good wishes your way... Take it super easy! We're all rooting for you!

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  67. JJ - I hope everything went well this morning! I'll be thinking about you and hoping for some fantastic embryos to grow and implant!

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  68. I'm so late getting to this. Oy...I've been so busy! Thinking of you and sending mucho positive vibes, although you are probably all done with ER. Rest up!!

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