Thursday, March 29, 2007

Preparing for rain...

Last night was pretty powerful in our house. My lovely sister recommended (or rather demanded) that Mook and I put " the Giants" at the top of our Net.flix qeue. So I obeyed....and by the first 3 minutes of the movie, I was glad I did.

Go out and rent it. Buy it. Buy 10 copies and give it to your friends. This movie was made on a shoe-string budget in Georgia...a church music minister co-wrote and co-directed it and had support of his entire congregation-they brought in very few "professionals" and almost the whole cast and crew volunteered their time to make this movie. It centers around a struggling football team, the coach and his wife's own struggles (think negative pregnancy tests) and the turn around in attitude and faith. No matter if you believe in God, Buddha, or the mailman--please watch this movie. My subject line "preparing for rain" is a strong message throughout the movie--underlying is the fable about two farmers who prayed for rain--one who did not prepare his fields to receive the rain; the other who did. Guess who received the rain? One line that just made me weep was: "How can I miss someone so much, who I haven't even met...."

I know deep in my heart and soul that Mook and I want a family very much. I know that God knows we want a family very much--and He also knows when that will happen for us. I know I waste time fearing that I won't ever get pregnant--I fear that for some reason we don't deserve it--I fear that I will disappoint Mook and my family--I fear that I won't even be a good mom--so many fears that I can give up.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

End of sermon=) I hope you find your faith today, whatever that may be...and hold on tight!


  1. Thank you once again for you encouraging words .. It's nice to read since my faith is quivering and ready to be swallowed by my fears

  2. Facing the Giants is a great movie once you get past the amateur acting.

    I'm glad that you are not ready to give up.

    I agree that God knows how much you and your husband want a family. I believe that because I believe He put that desire in your heart.

  3. I found your blog through Stirrup Queens, and I wanted to thank you for the movie recommendation. I actually saw that line (about missing someone you've never met) in someone's siggy on a message board and wondered where it came from. Now I know. I look forward to watching the movie.

  4. Beautiful entry.

  5. RYN: ((((((((thank you))))) Your words really mean a lot to me.

  6. I so know that feeling, the feeling of loving someone so much even tho you haven't met them yet...i'm hoping too that we all find faith somewhere on this journey, keep your faith, it's a beautifull thing.

  7. Faith keeps us going. And it gives us peace.
    Keep the faith!

  8. What a lovely post. I am tearing up here. I will make a point to see it once it comes out here. This post is one I will come back and read again and again.

  9. A question for you. I read a lot on blogs of those who have a strong christian faith: "god knows when we will have a family" or something similar. However, I thought that humans had free will, which is an important component of faith, and which means that god cannot know how things will turn out, or we'd just be puppets. How do you reconcile these two things? I've tried reading about this, for example here:, but it's not clear to me. Would love to hear how you think about this.


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