Last night was pretty powerful in our house. My lovely sister recommended (or rather demanded) that Mook and I put "Fac.ing the Giants" at the top of our Net.flix qeue. So I obeyed....and by the first 3 minutes of the movie, I was glad I did.
Go out and rent it. Buy it. Buy 10 copies and give it to your friends. This movie was made on a shoe-string budget in Georgia...a church music minister co-wrote and co-directed it and had support of his entire congregation-they brought in very few "professionals" and almost the whole cast and crew volunteered their time to make this movie. It centers around a struggling football team, the coach and his wife's own struggles (think negative pregnancy tests) and the turn around in attitude and faith. No matter if you believe in God, Buddha, or the mailman--please watch this movie. My subject line "preparing for rain" is a strong message throughout the movie--underlying is the fable about two farmers who prayed for rain--one who did not prepare his fields to receive the rain; the other who did. Guess who received the rain? One line that just made me weep was: "How can I miss someone so much, who I haven't even met...."
I know deep in my heart and soul that Mook and I want a family very much. I know that God knows we want a family very much--and He also knows when that will happen for us. I know I waste time fearing that I won't ever get pregnant--I fear that for some reason we don't deserve it--I fear that I will disappoint Mook and my family--I fear that I won't even be a good mom--so many fears that I can give up.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
End of sermon=) I hope you find your faith today, whatever that may be...and hold on tight!