Tuesday, March 20, 2007

A small battle...

There are plenty of times that I literally hear "two sides" of my brain trying to tell me something...and I feel I have entered that battle zone in the past few days...

I am on cycle-day-12...approaching the I.U.I time line....every other cycle for the past 6 months, I have been temp.ing and chart.ing and taking o-p-k tests....and have been getting good results.

So why am I panicking?!! Today, I entered my temp into fertility.friend and it said that I ovu.lated 3 days ago....hmmmmmm. Where I do not believe this to be true (since none of my tell-tale signs are visible: CM, low dip then rise, etc) it is just adding to my nerves that I am going to miss "the" day. Has anyone else experienced this with FF?

Yesterday, it was pretty clear on my test that there was no ovu.lation coming...and I will continue to test for the next 6-7 days, since I have gotten a positive result in that time frame in the past. But now I know I am going to be staring at the test in every kind of light, angle and grab a magnifying glass to make sure I am getting 2 pin.k lines!! I have just been using the Dol.lar Tree brand--Dr. D said those are just fine--but sometimes I get nervous they don't show the same results as some of these high $$ ones...

I know it is best to keep the nerves at bay through this whole upcoming process--the more calm and relaxed my body is, the more likely it will work like a well oiled machine.

Whew, just had to get that off my chest! Nerves are normal...just have to keep positive and test like I have been for a while now...and trust that I will get the signs necessary to go forth with our first IUI!

14 comments:

  1. As you probably know from reading my blog, I get nervous before every cycle too. Something unexpected always seems to happen!

    I think you probably know your body best, and wouldn't worry about "fertility friend" telling you anything. Is your doctor doing any monitoring US? That might help you feel better about what's going on.

    Good luck!

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  2. I hope I know my body best..sometimes the medical world makes us think otherwise...

    I am not doing any US or monitoring this cycle, since I HAVE been getting + O.p.k's....Hope that's not a silly way to go, but we are still trusting that Dr. D knows best...it keeps our cost down for now too!

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  3. I would tell you to try not to stress out too much, but I know from experience that you just can't help it. I would definately say trust your body and your Dr. before Fertility Friend.
    Keeping my fingers crossed that this is your month!

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  4. FF doesn't always know what she's talking about. i always had the impression it's designed to be over cautious. but i never did an IUI cycle without monitoring, so i'm no expert. i definitely think we are better experts on our bodies than some mathematical formula, useful as the formula may sometimes be.

    good luck!!

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  5. As much as I hate to say this, because I LOVED Fertility Friend, the best thing I did in my IF journey was to cancel my membership. It just became TOO consuming...made me overthink every single thing. I mean, I couldn't wait to hop on my computer first thing in the morning to log in my temp; I'd be up at 6:00 on a Saturday just to do so.
    Go with your gut feelings...because FF will probably change your O date again anyway (that happened to me several times) in the coming days!!!
    Best of luck!!!

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  6. I was told that the dollar store tests are good because they detect a smaller amount of progestrone - and you do know your body best - things like to fool us, but you know the truths, hang in there !!

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  7. I get that with FF, it doesn't seem that accurate to me. CM signs and the OPK are more reliable, just stick with those, although FF is fun, isn't it? :)

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  8. FF drove me crazy worrying about missing The Day. Definitely trust your body over a computer program -- you know yourself better than some generic algorithm.

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  9. FF has it's moments. Sometimes it would say I'd ovulated when I'd know I hadn't...and then would take my crosshairs away or move them based on later temps. Sometimes I never got them, even though my OPK told me it was positive. :) I don't know how long you've been charting, but it can take a few cycles for FF to figure out a pattern for you.

    Good luck!

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  10. The only way I could predict my ovulation is through ultrasound monitoring and triggering. I haven't tried FF. I guess you just have to trust your doctor and know your body. (I just can't seem to trust my body.)
    I know what you mean about freaking out over missing the O date. It's just one day in a one month cycle. I hope you get your O day soon.

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  11. I will also have to agree the FF doesn't always know best! When I was charting she tended to change my day around a lot.

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  12. I so hear you on the pre-IUI nerves. I'm always convinced that I'm going to miss the window and ovulate before the trigger (which is what my ovaries are wont to do...) There's no question that FF gets it wrong sometimes early on. My guess is, you will get a + in a few days, and FF will adjust at that point given additional data. Hang in there, and best of luck with the IUI!!

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  13. I would ALWAYS panic during my IUI's that I was ovulating too early or too late. Its a stressful time, and after all, FF is only a "computer" right :-) You know your own body better. Good luck this round!

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  14. Geez, good luck chick - I must say that I could never be that brave and not have the monitoring, I don't trust my body that much and those damn OPK's never worked for me!! Keep us posted...

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