Friday, July 27, 2007

Love & Hope

Thank you thank you thank you thank you--for all the wonderful comments to the last post--you all are fantastic! I decided in honor of all the positive vibes and thoughts you are sending our way, that I should look on the bright side today and share with you a few things that have brought a smile to my face and hope into my heart in the past few weeks:

1. Love and Prayers: my family and friends (including you all!) who know what we are going through have been prayer warriors for us! I truly can't fathom the amount of hope, love and prayers that are being offered to us on a daily basis--that is the greatest gift.

2. A Paper Clip: Yes, a paper clip. There is a LONG history and significant meaning of a paper clip in Mook's and my relationship. It seems silly that a little piece of office equipment could mean so much, but it does. And lo-and-behold, the morning we walked in for our ER, I looked down as we entered the doors outside of the clinic, and my the tip of my flip-flop was touching a paper clip. That sent shivers down my spine, and Mook wore the paper clip on his shirt pocket the whole day (I think it's still there!) And I had a great ER!

3. A Lucky Penny: My family came down last weekend which was wonderful--I got to spend great time with my mom, and this helped keep my nerves at ease. We went out to dinner at our favorite diner in town, and as I stepped out of the truck my flip flop AGAIN touched the edge of a penny. A 1979 penny--the year Mook was born. Lucky? I hope...

4. Chinese Fertility Frog Chime: I mentioned this before, but the chime that my aunt sent us was such a gift--in many ways. The sweet gesture reminded us how lucky we are to have such a loving family-and hopefully since it's been hanging in our bedroom, it's been blessing our fertility!

5. A Grasshopper: This morning, as I opened my office door, a big grasshopper was waiting for me. Just one--and no other's have been found anywhere in my co-workers offices. Only spiders freak me out, so I didn't let out a yelp--I just got this big smile on my face. I remembered I had heard once that they meant good luck...and here is what I found:

"The Chinese symbol of good luck and abundance, Grasshopper gives people the ability to take chances. To move on hunches and take the leap forward. Things might not move for them as they do for other people; progress is not step-by-step, but rather extremely fast. Trust your own instincts on when to make the leaps. Trust your inner voice. It will lead you to great successes. Don’t be afraid to leap – and remember that Grasshopper only leaps forward – never backward."

Monday seems so far away. Yet, I almost don't what it to get here--it is so final. Any ideas on how I can keep myself occupied this weekend without too much strenuous activity? I know I'll be sending out some notes to my BB girls--and hopefully finishing HP, so that should help me pass the time!

I did put in another call to my embryologist at the encouraging of ArtBlog-we have spent a lot of $ on this whole process, so I might as well get my money's worth, right? =) I want to go over a few more questions about the blasts she transferred, so hopefully she will give me a call back today. That will help put me at ease a bit, since I feel like I have twisted and contorted her original report of our other embies to where I don't know what is what anymore....

Thanks again to all of you--this journey would be a whole lot different without you!


  1. I think the paperclip thing is so cool, it'd be awesome if it was a sign:-)

    As for not wanting Monday to get here, I get it. I was thinking I don't necessarily want my 2ww to end this time, cuz being happy and positive and ignorant is kind of a pleasant surprise.

    Good luck keeping busy - if you've got a garden, I find that shockingly therapeutic.

  2. Oh very COol post - i am learning lots from offo ur the cool blogger kids - I never new that about grasshoppers - thanks for sharing - I have no ideas about the 2 week waits - i suck at waiting 0 i tend to do a house project- clean out something, watch movies, that kind of stuff - good luck to you - Prayer is a wonderful thing - I know i couldn't get by w/o all of those praying for us! Blessings to you - farah

  3. Just stopping by to say good luck on Monday. I am the same way about signs, so I understand the paper clip and penny. That would have me very hopeful.

  4. I hate trying to pass the time during the tww. Movies, HP, walks (if it's not too hot)--maybe they'll help you stay busy.

    I hope these good luck signs work for you!

  5. i killed a lot of time shopping (steering clear of any baby/maternity stores). i bought ridiculously unecessary things but it totally took my mind off it. i have to leave my house to get my thoughts away from the wait. i also made plans with girlfriends who didn't know what was going on and i knew i didn't want to tell them, so even if it was torturing me, i knew i'd have to distract myself.

    lots of love and hope to you!

  6. I keep a list of projects that need doing around the house (both fun and not-so-fun) and focus crossing off as many as possible during the 2WW.

    Sending more good vibes your way... Ms. P

  7. I'm glad you are feeling better :) And I am all about signs!!
    Sending more positive thoughts and prayers your way for Monday :)

  8. So glad to see all the good omens showing up for you. Hopefully all will be well, and don't ask that Monday never comes - you will love Monday forever if it turns out to be good news! Hang in there!!!

  9. I so hear you on the conflicted thoughts about the approaching beta, and it's finality. That's exactly how I was feeling as well. On the one hand, you're desperate to know. On the other, ambiguity brings with it hope.

    You know I'm thinking of you and hoping for the best! I hope you and Mook have a great weekend, and that he's got lots of great distractions planned.

    thinking of you and hoping for you, Mook, Pearl and Jam with all my might!

  10. Can you tell us more about the paper clip? It sounds like a sign to me.

    I hope that all of this luck really works for you, JJ.

  11. Hey J, I am back from vacation and have just got caught up. I was so excited to get back to a computer to see what all was going on with you after the transfer. It is all SO very nail-biting! I can't even imagine your emotions... Well, Monday seem so far away now! I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers...and all my fingers and toes crossed! Also, I love the post. All of the good luck signs sent shivers down my spine! :]

  12. C'mon Pearl and Jam, let's make some noise in there! I'm doing that crazy chicken dance for your beta on Monday. Oh please, oh please, oh please.

  13. You know all my prayers will be with you, I'm hoping for the best for both of us :)

    I'm rooting for those signs to only mean something GREAT is about to happen!

  14. Wow, great signs! Have everything crossed for Monday!

  15. That's so awesome! So tell me, since we're both in this together, are you having any symptoms? If so, what are they? I need to compare, I need it NOW! I need to see if what's happening with me is happening to you too!! I'm obsessing about the symptoms now that I'm not POAS any more! One minute I'm sure its worked and the next I feel certain that it didn't. UGH! Have you POAS again? I want Monday over and done with, and yet I'm terrified to get the news. Write soon...I NEED to KNOW RIGHT NOW!!! :)

  16. Only two more sleeps, I'll be thinking of you so much! Hang in there, we're all hoping for you and thinking good and positive thought! :)

  17. Loved the post... I'll continue praying for you... Hugs

  18. Hey I just wanted to send you a note to tell you good luck tomorrow! Do you have a knot in your stomach like I do???? I need it to be done so I can know, but I'm terrified to have the beta done too......24 hours from now we'll both have answers. Good luck chickee!


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